So frustrated I want to throw the scale against the wall

Frustrated

I have had a nice relationship with my scale for almost a whole year, but now I think we are going to break up for awhile. My recent Weigh Ins have been frustrating to say the least.

Is that honeymoon phase of my Gastric Bypass Surgery now over as they say? Say it isn’t so because I like being on a Honeymoon. But as well all know to well all good things must come to an end and it is back to work. Great – I hate work. This plain sucks.

Here’s the deal – On October 22nd I finally made it to ONEderland hitting 199 lbs – Yes a major goal of mine and of most of us going through this. It was the best feeling in the world. But since then I have gone up and down ending up as of my Weigh In yesterday, December 3rd, at only 197 lbs. So I have only lost 2 lbs in the last 5 weeks. Prior I was averaging about 1-2 per week and now this!! I want to rip my hair out.

I am gonna be honest with you all – I am terrified. I DO NOT want to go backwards, this is scary. I have goals to make and my next one is to lose 100 lbs by my sugiversary which is coming up on January 23rd, 2013. I am 11 lbs from that goal and what seemed achievable last month now seems like it may not be. I am freaking out a bit.

I talked to my friend who just had Gastric Bypass this morning about my concerns and she reminded me of that all important thing I always say – Gastric Bypass Surgery is just a tool and not a fix it all. That is something we all have to keep in mind. I know that too, but as the honeymoon period starts to go away we have to work that much harder at not falling into all those old habits we had prior that got us here in the first place. I wrote a post last month When Bad Habits Creep Back. I have been trying to make changes and have, but why am I stalling and not losing weight?????

What do I do now? Well in that post I said I would try the 5 Day Pouch Test and have not done that. Starting tomorrow I am gonna do it and see if that can get me back on the right track. If I start tomorrow I will end it on Sunday and weigh in on Monday – so that will be perfect. No I have not been exercising and that can be it as well – now that it is cold I am not doing much but sitting at my desk all day working. So I guess I will give in and get on that treadmill that just collects dust.

I just had to share my frustrations with you all – I am having a hard time right now and with the scale not moving as it was before and it can be a real downer. Having Gastric Bypass Surgery is not all Unicorns and Rainbows folks, keep that in mind. I do not sugar coat anything just so you know.

For the next 5 days here is my plan…. I will do the 5 Day Pouch Test and log everything I eat to share with you all on Monday. I will also get on that treadmill for no less than 30 minutes per day for the next 5 days as well. Wish me luck and stay tuned for the results – ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Lets hope I do not rip all my hair out in the meantime.