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My fifty eighth week after Gastric Bypass

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So I continued my Food Journal for another week due to my weight gain and my weight loss stall. I was able to get off the 3 pounds I went up last week, but that puts me right back to the same weight I have been stuck at for about 8 weeks now.

The warm weather has still not come our way even though it is Spring now. Mother Nature must have some kind of bug up her ass because she thinks it is ok to create a snow storm when it should be warm and sunny. I am ready to be done with this winter depression and be outside playing in my garden and working on my yard. I know one of the main reasons I have been in this weight loss stall is due to the lack of exercise and I pray once I getting moving the scale will as well.

By starting up my Food Journal again has been a good eye opener for me and has helped me try and figure out what it is I may be doing wrong. Although I have yet to figure it out exactly there are some things that I see I need to change. Honestly I think the biggest one that always come back to bite me is the “E” word – Exercise – I talk about this a lot, but yet avoid it like the plague.

As I look at the things I am eating and my daily food intake I do not think it is absolutely horrible by any means, but not the best either. I am not eating a lot (which could be an issue in itself), I am not making the best choices at times (such as the sweets and chips from time to time), I have definitely not been getting in 64 ounces of liquid daily and worst of all not getting in as much exercise as I should be.

I miss the days of stepping on the scale and having it just go down each week. I hope and pray that will happen again, but when you are stalled for so long it terrifies me in a BIG way. I am not at my goal weight yet and still have 35 more pounds before I get there. Now even though I know I should be exercising and that will help get my metabolism back in gear I still have not done it. What the hell is wrong with me? Why is it I avoid the “E” word like I do. UGH!! Anyway here is what I ate all week for you to see….

Here is what I ate so you can see each day for the fifty eighth week:

(I am gonna add the times on as well)

March 18th

  • 7:30 am – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer – First thing every day when I wake up
  • 12:00 pm – A few bites of left over Roasted Potatoes and Corned Beef
  • 12:30 pm – 1 Mint Chocolate Chip Cookie
  • 1:00 pm – Protein Coffee – Contains 40.5 grams of protein
  • 3:00 pm – A few bites of leftover roasted potatoes
  • 4:30 pm – A few bites of Corned Beef and 1 Mint Chocolate Chip Cookie
  • 8:00 pm – A piece of Corned Beef, Cabbage and Roasted Potatoes

Today was a boring day for me I worked for a bit on the computer and then totally cleaned my Bedroom and my upstairs Bathroom. Oh how I hate cleaning bathrooms, but it had to be done – god knows no one else in my family will do it. We also had a small snow storm – ugh – dumb mother nature!!! I seemed to pick a lot today because I was busy and never really sat down for a meal until 8:00 pm.

March 19th

  • 9:00 am – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer – First thing every day when I wake up
  • 10:00 am – 2 Slices of Salami
  • 11:45 am – 2 Slices of Salami
  • 1:00 pm – Roasted Chicken – I ate a thigh and drumstick
  • 1:30 pm – 1 Mint Chocolate Chip Cookie
  • 2:00 pm – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer
  • 3:15 pm – 1 Mint Chocolate Chip Cookie
  • 4:00 pm – A small bowl of Baked Cheese Doodles
  • 8:30 pm – 2 Chicken, Rice and Bean Burritos – small frozen ones
  • 9:30 pm – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer
  • 10:30 pm – 1 Mint Chocolate Chip Cookie

Today my son had a 2 hour delay due to yesterdays snow so I was able to stay in bed a bit longer – wooo hooo. Then later in the day I had a bunch of stuff to drop off at the local consignment store – love that – nothing like purging!!! Then after that I took my friend to go shopping at Walmart to get all the stuff she needed for her upcoming Gastric Bypass Surgery.

After I got home from Walmart I had to move my hen chicks into a larger cage/brooder because they are growing like crazy and needed more room. My daughter and I added sides to it using poster board and put lots of sparkly flower stickers on the inside for them.

March 20th – First day of SPRING

  • 7:30 am – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer – First thing every day when I wake up
  • 12:00 pm – 2 Spoonfuls of Mashed Potatoes
  • 2:00 pm – Protein Coffee – Contains 40.5 grams of protein
  • 3:00 pm – 2 Slices of Salami
  • 5:30 pm – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer
  • 7:00 pm – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer
  • 8:15 pm – Lean Cuisine Beef with Broccoli – 350 Calories, 7 grams of Fat, 20 grams of Protein
  • 9:00 pm – Cup of Tea
  • 10:00 pm – Handful of Salt & Vinegar Chips and 1 slice of Salami

So it’s the first day of Spring and I wondered all day where it was because it was not in PA. It was freezing outside with lingering snow on the ground. I am not happy about that and for some reason woke up had some coffee sat down in the recliner and feel asleep until 10:30 – I guess maybe I was hoping when I woke up it would be warm out, but NOPE no such luck. After my little nap I worked a bit and then tackled all the laundry – I even folded it all and put it away – Crazy right?

March 21st

  • 7:30 am – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer – First thing every day when I wake up
  • 10:30 pm – Protein Coffee – Contains 40.5 grams of protein
  • 12:30 pm – 1 slice of American Cheese
  • 1:15 pm – Healthy Choice Steamer Sesame Glazed Chicken – 330 Calories, 5 grams of Fat, 14 grams of Protein
  • 6:00 pm – 2 Chicken Patty Sandwiches on rolls with Mayo, Lettuce, Tomato and Pickles
  • 7:30 pm – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer
  • 8:45 pm – Rice Krispy Treat – 90 Calories

Today I ran some errands and then packed up my hubby and son for a trip they were taking to Boston – a nice father and son getaway. I also got a bit crazy and actually cleaned my oven – yeah totally nuts right? Then after my hubby and son hit the road I got my daughter and took her into her room to clean that. I am working hard with her to get her to part with some of her stuff – I swear she is a young hoarder – lol. She did good and I was able to get her to part with a nice amount of stuff to donate and also bring to consignment. Kids have such a hard time parting with their stuff, but if she doesn’t she will end up being on one of those shows one day – lol.

March 22nd

  • 9:40 am – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer – First thing every day when I wake up
  • 10:20am – 1 slice of American Cheese
  • 12:00 pm – 3 Dove Chocolates
  • 1:00 pm – 1 7 Layer Burrito from Taco Bell
  • 3:30 pm – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer
  • 5:30 pm – 1 piece of Baked Flounder, 1 small Crab Cake dipped in Tarter Sauce and Asparagus
  • 7:00 pm – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer
  • 10:00 pm – 1 Black Bean and Rice Burrito from Taco Bell and a handful of Chips

Today my daughter and I went out shopping with my sister. Then my daughter had her friend sleep over and it was just us girls since the boys were away in Boston.

March 23rd

  • 9:30 am – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer – First thing every day when I wake up
  • 2:00 pm – Protein Coffee – Contains 40.5 grams of protein
  • 5:00 pm – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer
  • 7:00 pm – Chinese Food – 1 Cup of Egg Drop Wonton Soup and some Garlic Chicken with White Rice
  • 9:00 pm – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer
  • 11:00 pm – 1 Ice Cream Cone

Today was a fun long day. I cleaned in the morning as always. Then I had a nice visit from my mother and sister in law – they know I get lonely when my hubby is not home, I know pathetic but true. Then my daughter and I got Chinese take out for our special girls night dinner and later in the evening my friends and her daughter came over to watch The kids choice awards with us.

March 24th

  • 9:30 am – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer – First thing every day when I wake up
  • 1:00 pm – 4 forkfuls of Italian Pasta Salad
  • 2:00 pm – My leftover Chinese Food – Garlic Chicken with White Rice
  • 3:30 pm – Rice Krispy Treat – 90 Calories
  • 5:00 pm – Protein Coffee – Contains 40.5 grams of protein
  • 7:00 pm – Eggroll
  • 7:30 pm – 2 Peanut Butter with Chocolate Chip Cookies
  • 8:30 pm – 1 Small Bag of Popcorn
  • 9:30 pm – 5 Sour Patch Kid Candies

This morning my neighbor came over for a visit with me. Then in the afternoon I spent some quality time with my daughter and we drew and then made some cookies for my hubby and son who wee coming home from their trip today. In the evening I played with my chicks and then caught up on some shows with my hubby.

So that was my week – It looks much better than my one prior as far as eating wise, but still not the best. While I lost the 3 pounds I went up it still just puts me back at that number that won’t budge at all. It is even possible I am not eating enough – I seem to pick all day long and takes bites of food here and there and just tend to eat one meal per day. I do however try and make sure to get protein in each day in my way of the Protein Coffee – this way I know I am getting in at least 40 grams of protein with that anything else I have just adds to it.

I will continue my Food Journal and pray that I can break this damn stall because it truly is driving me crazy now!!!

Stay Tuned!!!

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My fifty seventh week after Gastric Bypass

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So I decided to start up my Food Journal again after being on a 7 week weight loss stall. I finally broke my stall this week, BUT the scale went the wrong way – talk about frustrating!!!

While having a weight gain after being stalled after 7 weeks is horrible and depressing – having kept my Food Journal and being completely honest writing down what I ate may help explain what I am doing wrong. To start off I have posted about my winter depression in a previous post here: Seasonal Affective Disorder – Do you have it too? Dealing with this I know has been a big reason why I have not lost any additional weight for so long as well as my now weight gain.

I know my eating habits have gone down hill and I have been choosing foods and snacks that are more for comfort vs being a healthy choice for me. It is easy to know what I am doing wrong and a lot harder to stop and take action, but with summer around the corner and the fear of gaining more back I must take action now. It is a new week and I owe it to all the hard work I have done to make changes and get that scale moving in the direction in needs to go. I am NOT at my goal weight yet and I promised myself I would get there.

Having Gastric Bypass as I always say is NOT magic. Again it is just a tool to help get you started, but it does not fix your brain and how you think. Those who are thinking of going through it must know this going in. The chances of gaining weight back after having surgery are there because it is not a cure to why we got so heavy in the first place – that is the scariest part of it all. Now that I am past the Gastric Bypass honeymoon stage – which they say is at about a year and I am now past that – it is more up to me vs. the surgery to finish and get to my goal. It is not easy as you can read as I write and I am truly terrified right now.

Honestly I feel like all the other times I have dieted and succeeded then got to the point of feeling good and thinking – hey it is ok if I eat this cookie, oh a handful of chips won’t hurt and then it is a downward spiral from there – if you are reading this I know you know what I am talking about. Right now sharing my story and struggles on this blog I am hoping will be a lifesaver and get me back on track. Writing about my feelings and where I am at this point helps me become more accountable for my actions. With this weight gain and keeping my Food Journal this past week and being honest with what I put in my mouth and writing it down also shows me where I am going wrong.

I truly miss the weeks of losing weight no matter what I did after the surgery and the happiness I had to see the scale going down week after week. Again I am so scared that the rest is in my hands more so than before because obviously I had no self control and that is why I ended up to the point of surgery in the first place. I keep blaming my winter depression, but I have to stop with my pity party and get control back or I will find myself where I started and NO WAY do I ever want to be there again.

So let me share with you my Food Journal from this past week so you can also see what I am doing wrong and the changes I have to make!!!

Here is what I ate so you can see each day for the fifty seventh week:

(I am gonna add the times on as well)

Let me also add in I decided to start my Food Journal again mid week because I stepped on the scale on a non weigh in day and saw the scale go up 3 pounds.

March 13th

  • 7:00 am – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer – First thing every day when I wake up
  • 9:30 am – Bite of leftover Chicken from my dinner the night before
  • 12:45 pm – 1 Piece of Chicken (small cutlet) and about 1/4 Cup Garlic Mashed Potatoes
  • 1:10 pm – Rice Krispy Treat – 90 calories
  • 3:15 pm – 2 Dove Chocolates
  • 4:00 pm – Protein Coffee – Contains 40.5 grams of protein (took me 3 hours to drink)
  • 7:30 pm – Medium Greek Salad with a piece of bread (take out)
  • 9:00 pm – Cup of Tea
  • 10:00 pm – Snacked on Pistachios while watching TV
  • 10:30 pm – 5 Candy Sour Gumdrops

As I stated I stepped on the scale this morning and saw I was up 3 pounds and immediately started keeping my Food Journal again. What I ate on this day was not that bad, but as you can see there were some things I could have done without such as the Rice Krispy Treat and the Candies.

March 14th

  • 7:00 am – 1 Oreo Cookie
  • 7:15 am – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer – First thing every day when I wake up
  • 10:20 am – I slice of Bread with Mayo
  • 10:30 am – Protein Coffee – Contains 40.5 grams of protein (took me 3 hours to drink)
  • 2:30 pm – 2 Slices of Provolone Cheese & Salami Rolled Up
  • 3:15 pm – Finished my Greek Salad and a few bites of Bread
  • 4:00 pm – 4 Sour Patch Candies
  • 7:20 pm – 6 Meat Tortellinis I picked from my daughter’s dinner
  • 8:10 pm – Cup of Tea
  • 9:45 pm – Frozen Freschetta Market Veggie Pizza – Ate 3/4 of it. 450 Calories, 20.5 Grams Fat and 19.5 Grams of Protein for what I ate.

Today I was sooo bored and not feeling the best – I believe I have a sinus infection. I ventured out to do some food shopping, tried to relax with a sewing project and basically just laid around.

You may be wondering about the Bread with Mayo right? Well that is an old habit of mine – to me it is like bread and butter, but with mayo. I ate that because I needed something in my belly that was quick before I took a pain med. Not the best choice, but I had nothing else to grab at the moment. The rest of the day was not so bad until the Pizza. Yes I ate 3/4 of it, BUT it is a thin crust pizza and not heavy at all like a regular pizza – should I have eaten that much – NOPE, but I did. Shhh I enjoyed every bite too – it is yummy.

So I took a picture of the pizza to show you if you wonder how I ate so much – the crust is extremely thin and then it is pretty much a small amount of cheese with lots of veggies on top. Normally I cannot handle a lot of carbs and this pizzas crust is thin enough that I had no issues. Problem is that I should have not eaten 3/4s of it. What I ate totaled 450 Calories, 20.5 Grams Fat and 19.5 Grams of Protein.

March 15th

  • 7:30 am – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer – First thing every day when I wake up
  • 9:00 am – 4 Slices of Provolone Cheese & Salami Rolled Up
  • 9:30 am – 3 Oreos
  • 1:15 pm – Handful of Baby Back Rib Chips
  • 2:30 pm – Frozen Freschetta Market Veggie Pizza – Ate 3/4 of it. 450 Calories, 20.5 Grams Fat and 19.5 Grams of Protein for what I ate. (yes I did it again)
  • 5:00 pm – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer
  • 6:00 pm – Cheeseburger with lettuce, tomato and pickles on a bun with a handful of baked French Fries
  • 8:12 pm – 1 Oreo
  • 9:30 pm – 4 Sour Patch Candies
  • 10:30 pm – 2 Oreos
  • 10:40 pm – Cup of Tea
  • 11:00 pm – Handful of Baby Back Rib Chips

Wow now that I type this up – I had a horrible day and ate WAY too much – or just made some bad choices. Today my sinus infection kicked my ass and I felt like total crap. In between my eating binges I laid around all day watching TV and having a cat nap from 3-5pm. I am not a good sick person and when I have sinuses and stuffed in the head I am miserable and I was. Obviously it did not stop me from eating bad things, but I think it was more comfort for me. And yes I ate another one of those pizzas again – thank god I only bought 2 and now they are gone so that will not happen anymore.

March 16th

  • 10:35 am – 1 Oreo
  • 10:40 am – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer – First thing every day when I wake up
  • 12:00 pm – 1 Slice of Provolone Cheese & Salami Rolled Up
  • 1:30 pm – 2 Leftover Cheeseburgers – No Bun, just dipped in ketchup
  • 2:45 pm – Rice Krispy Treat – 90 calories
  • 6:30 pm – Bowl of Baked Cheese Doodles
  • 10:00 pm – A couple pieces of Broccoli and Cauliflower dipped in Ranch Dressing, 3 Slices of Provolone Cheese & Salami Rolled Up and 3 Oreos

Slept in until 10:30 today due to feeling like complete garbage. On top of that it is snowing – really? Mother Nature is not helping the situation at all. Today was another day laying on the couch watching TV and Movies. I ended up watching The Green Mile and then Forest Gump with my daughter. Those Cheese Doodles were a movie snack. I did not eat much today, but again not the best choices for what I did.

March 17th – St. Patrick’s Day

  • 10:45 am – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer – First thing every day when I wake up
  • 12:00 pm – 2 Slices of Provolone Cheese & Salami Rolled Up
  • 1:30 pm – Coffee with Hazlenut Creamer
  • 6:00 pm – 2 Mint Chocolate Chip Cookies
  • 7:30 pm – Corned Beef, Roasted Potatoes with Onions and Cabbage
  • 8:15 pm – 1 Mint Chocolate Chip Cookie
  • 9:30 pm – Cup of Tea
  • 10:00 pm – 2 Mint Chocolate Chip Cookies

Woke up late again today at 10:00 am, but I was finally feeling better. After a hot shower which I did not take for 2 days I felt new life in me again and my sinuses started to clear up a bit – thank god!! I put 3 Corned Beefs in my crock pots and could not wait until dinner – I love Corned Beef and Cabbage!! I pretty much saved myself for dinner, but those Mint Chocolate Chip Cookies were a secret sabotage from my sister I think.

This is me and my BFF who stopped by earlier in the day with her kids to come visit me. I am so happy to be feeling better and almost sinus free – now to deal with my bad eating habits and this darn weight gain!!

So that was my week – well almost week since I started journaling mid week. As you can see from what I had eaten there were lots of things I should not have had such as Oreo Cookies, Chips, Candies and too much of that Pizza.

Ya know what is really strange??? Prior to my Gastric Bypass Surgery I was never one for sweets – or at least candy. For some weird reason I crave candy now. It started with Twizzlers and now I love the gummy Sour Candies. I do not eat tons of them, but as you can see from my week at times I just need a few. Honestly I should 86 this new habit right away before it gets really bad.

Now looking back on my week it really does not look horrible, but not as healthy and full of protein as it should be. I have also not exercised at all and if you follow me you know it is not a favorite thing to do of mine. Over the winter I do not get much and while I can be changing that and use the treadmill that sits in my house I just have not gotten on it. Once spring hits and the warm weather is among us I will be getting outside and starting my endless yard work with plenty of exercise, but that is not helping now in the moment.

So with that all said I am going to continue with my Food Journal and work on making better food choices this week. Stay Tuned and check back next week to see if I got that scale to move in the right direction.

I would love to hear from all of you and what you think of what I ate and changes I should make – leave me a comment below and be honest – I am not too sensitive.